Life there was quite good... Maybe its because it is still the adjustment week.... My section mates are nice and friendly people... Like to talk cock with them and also play chinese chess.... Think my skills leveled up also... hehe...
Food in tekong is pretty fail in my opinion.... Especially congee only put peanut and button mushroom... lol... Destroying my taste buds man....
5 more weeks and we will be through !!
Frankly speaking, right now at this very moment, I am having a mixture of feelings... Feelings of anticipation, a little of uncertainty and of course some sense of joy. You may ask, eh serve NS what joy. wait u go in then no more joy.... I have heard friends telling me that it will be devoid of joy and stuff...
But to me, this is a new challenge... One that will probably be life changing... I really really hope I can learn stuff there... Be it technical or soft skills.... Perhaps change my perspectives too... So far I have only seen cynical changes in my friends who have gone in earlier than me... But I wanna believe and will myself to have constructive and positive impacts on my perspectives... I have the resilence i believe...
First 2 weekends confinement in Pulau tekong...Friends tell me that I will be homesick... Not sure if I would be or not... But im pretty sure for now that i wouldnt be... Considering that I went to china for 2 weeks too... Didnt feel homesick then but cant be sure now... =x
Butbutbut... I SHALL SURVIVE... Just hope my bunk people are nice and dun ostracise me for being shy =x... Hope brandon is same bunk as me... then hope i get the lower bunk too... =x
So long people =)
But right now, it all seems so real... cos it IS real... 3 weeks before im going in to serve my beloved nation... I hope i will come back out in 1 piece....
Looking back, I think I have indeed matured through these 3 years especially for the past 1 year... Things have happened and have also absorbed new experiences....Picked up new hobbies, acquired new skills, made new friends, made great friends, made friends that lasts.....
I am looking for a new experience for the next 2 yrs and I hope these will be positive experiences.... I still stand by my viewpoint that irregardless of whether life events are good or bad, there will ALWAYS be positive take-aways.... I hope to be able to enrich my life in the coming 2 yrs with new knowledge, new skills and of cos new philosophy... SMU has enlightened several life philosophies to me and I definitely treasure that...
Spending my last 3 weeks before nation-serving is like counting down... There is a tinge of anticipation, a tinge of anxiety and of cos a tinge of sadness and excitement...
If you guys want a piece of me, be sure to ask before 22oct 09 or there might be none left =P
Dreamt about something big happened to fel and it was definitely not good... Most of my dreams turn into reality thats why I am hoping that I dont have dreams so often because its gonna be reflected in reality too.... Had an omnious feeling and decided to send an email to fel to reassure that I am always open as an avenue for help because I think it felt pretty real and might happen in reality although I might sound very random in that email.
Its been more than a year and a half of denying, deceiving myself that I am actually past that stage but I think deep down in me, I still care.... I cant let go as fast as aloy.... This dream/nightmare made me realise that I still care... Maybe thats my problem....
I felt and am feeling really sad and emo-y still... Being my room mate for the past 3 months, sharing good times and also moody times together... Lending a listening ear and an ever-ready shoulder (Although i have yet to make use of).... The 2nd person (the 1st being my buddy) that I trusted and felt comfortable with after a couple of weeks.... Although a little extreme in thoughts and actions and also speaking without thinking at times, he is indeed a great friend to me. An important one... One that I could trust to understand my grievances...
I definitely hate goodbyes... never fails to make me tear... I hate to be all teary deary...
To JK: You probably will not be able to see this but I can only say that things will definitely be different in OCS now that you are gone and you will definitely be missed by me at least... And Im not lying... All the fun times at events, playing on stage with the mic trying to act as a prize presentation ceremony together, taking of random photos together, eating our lunchboxes together, playing with the cardreader together, times we had together since we moved into the same room, blue-tack man,J&J Consulting Firm, doing lunch duty... I will definitely remember!
Good luck for NS and I will definitely see you in there soon.... Facebook was probably right about1 thing for the first time, you are indeed one of my best friends....
The below song is dedicated to you:
再见我的爱人 - 邓丽君
GOODBYE MY LOVE 我的爱人 再见
GOODBYE MY LOVE 相见不知那一天
我把一切给了你 希望你要珍惜 不要辜负我的真情
GOODBYE MY LOVE 我的爱人 再见
GOODBYE MY LOVE 从此和你分离
我会永远永远爱你在心里 希望你不要把我忘记
我会永远怀念你 温柔的情怀里
热红的心怀念你 甜蜜的吻怀念你
那醉人的歌声 怎能忘记这段情 我的爱再见
不知那日再相见
再见了我的爱人 我将永远不会忘记你
也希望你不要把我忘记
也许我们还会有见面的一天 不是吗
我的爱我相信 总有一天能再见
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- Mood:
sad
Have been pretty busy at my workplace... with jobs coming in non-stop... I really think we need to hire more.... i cant do everything man... im not superman... How i wish they just hire me for photography man... =x no more filings...
Bought a DSLR last week and oh boy was it fun... I think I am getting more and more familiar with my cam... lol i should go personalise it =x... lol And i think I am going to be made like the photographer for events too cos my director told me to take pics on this coming mon too...
Scrabble finals was pretty much expected... with ctss not winning anything... but it was indeed a fun day with laughs esp nearing the end when ben tried to ask for a girl's number lol....
And and and i realised my number was given out to somebody anyhow =x.... somehow ....
Overworked and underpaid worker... over and out =(
Had a really long night out with Sharon last night.....
We went for the Night Festival at SMU... It was a very impromtu thing to meet and go cos I was at home busy reconciling my bloody receipts that the students submitted....
And so we met for dinner at PS and soon realised that Gelare was replaced already by this China-run Cafe called AC2Cafe.... No wonder it seemed like that were so little people. In the end we went to SR for an average dinner I would say... The spaghetti was pretty dry and I would say of sub-par standard compared to Pastamania =x
Anyways, as we made our way to SMU through The Cathay, it started to pour like really bad... So the two of us decided to hang around inside The Cathay..... I would say The Cathay should have more shops opening cos after the 2nd level, it was not happening at all... We wanted to eat fried mars bars but it was sold out already =(
Then we made our way to SMU SIS when the rain became smaller... Entered Singapore National Museum for around 20mins before we headed out to get a good spot for the Lights display... Butbutbut..... Apparently it started pouring again -.- and the performance got pushed back to 11pm...
Into the performance like 20 mins, the narrating girl fell down from the moving platform -.- and the whole narration part got skipped... lol I must say the fireworks were pretty nice too...
Left orchard at around 1130pm.... Caught 190 to Bukit Panjang then caught a cab back... Sent sharon home before heading home... lol.... Reached home at 1am but stayed up till 230am to finish up my reconciling and burning of pictures... lol Theresa will probably kill me if i dont bring the cd on monday =.=
----------------------------------------Wrongs have been righted and everything shall be back to normal =)
Mr TANG YAN XI.... The below is dedicated to you...
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You have yet again flew my aeroplance.... My aeroplane nice to fly right..... got auto pilot also...
We all met yesterday... ALL OF US EXCEPT YOU.... And you know whats the irony? The irony was that the main guy was supposed to be YOU!
YOU called louisa to remind her to come.... Called the rest too.... and yet... YOU DIDNT COME! VERY FUN RIGHT!
And so the bunch of us has actually became secondary to the whoever that ask you out last minute? WTF! So much for being friends for more than 5 years.... YOU go count how many such outings we didnt inform you? YOU count liao tell me la.... FUCK! YOU pull this kind of stunt with us.....
YOU didnt even notify us as well! Hongda called you and YOU didnt pick his call..... Only when bryan called then u answered! Jonathan called then you answered..... YOU still got the cheek to call hongda like an hour later that you were teaching fucking mathematics and your hp was in the bag so you didnt hear? YOU can hear bryan and jonathan calling you but not hongda? WTF! SELECTIVE HEARING ISIT!
I seriously think you owe ALL OF US an explanation! Isit if you dont go teach that girl fucking mathematics she will die isit? So shes so much more important to u than us thats why you chose to fly ALL OUR AEROPLANES LAST MINUTE! WTF.....L
I was fucking pissed yesterday..... Am still fucking pissed today..... You better find a fucking day when u are fucking free and explain to US ALL (Me, HD, Lou, Bry, Jon , Bra) the reason behind your behaviour yesterday.... I dont believe in rendering someone guilty without a trial.... Im giving you this last chance to explain yourself clearly... with an explanation that is logical and that i will buy it.... If you are not interested, fine... let me know too... I know who to write off my list....
If theres one thing i fucking hate, thats to be be deemed as second priority by a friend of so many years..... and for a girl too... You dont listen to our advise nevermind.... but you dont fucking treat us as your opportunity cost im telling you.....
Last chance given.... Find a day to sit down with us all and give us an explanation. Dont say never give you chance to explain... use it wisely....
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Sheesh im damn annoyed -.- Sorry for the coarse language used... but im really pissed off....
- Mood:
annoyed
It was also my first Networking session man...
I shall talk about the networking first.... Yesterday was probably my first ever networking session of which i will probably have plenty to go to in the future during uni... Had a feel of how networking session worked..... Was discussing with one of my other collegue (read: Perm staff) about how random it is to talk to a random guy from a random company about some random position in the company..... Perhaps I will learn more about how to converse in a logical manner...
Things went by in a flurry.... Students swarmed in, followed by employers..... The food didnt look very interesting to me...
Took some pictures in the wardrobe with my roomate (read: 同房, temp staff).... and also some prank pictures too ... The bloody wardrobe only has 1 decent tie.... the rest really cannot make it...
Now to the leaving part...... Although I only just joined for a month, but it is pretty sad to see people go... Although I dont really like him but i guess since hes my coursemate, i shall not outburst till i cannot take it.... That time he just was being too sensitive man....
My junior's last day was yesterday too.... Shes a nice girl indeed... Probably losing somebody whom i can talk to and make fun of as well... oh wells... shall meet her often then =)
I reckon life at my work place is fun with the temps especially with JK and KE... Life has been improving with JK in my room too... I think the both of us suit each other to the core.... But I reckon I would still leave in the blink of an eye if there was a better job with better pay or better experience... Doesnt make me 依依不舍 with my current work place although life with the temps are great.... Being with them is like having cancer... You know 1 day they will all leave..... just like how you know cancer takes lifes away.... Gives it a definite time stamp...
I guess it doesnt give me a sense of belonging.... The nail has already rusted..... Hence, doesnt provide the pull factor.... oh wells... I guess im just a temp too... I mean the people there are nice.... One of the ADs told me an interesting story yesterday too and i must say i am alittle inspired! butbutbut... sighs...
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Bonds made must turn from covalent -> ionic->metallic .... However, metallic bonds are fragile too so must take care of it..... Things will come back if they were ever meant to be
I was sharing this theory that i have learnt through compare and contrast with my closer colleagues... I will name this as the ' Theory of the Nail-relationship in working world'
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Theory of the Nail-Relationship in Working World
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In the working environment, colleagues should not be seen talking with each other... Even if you can talk with each other, you most probably aint gonna share stuff about urself or others during that time.
Hence, lunch time is definitely a very valuable time for socialisation between team members...
A relationship amongst colleagues and team members in essence resembles a Nail. Now this is just an ordinary nail that rusts upon oxidizing...
Lunching with teammates and colleagues is as good as putting a coat of colourful paint onto the nail whereas not lunching will cause the nail to rust.... The colour of the nail determines the possibility of u going back for visits or even your sense of belonging in the company....
Understandably, lunch sessions should always be extended to newcomers on day 1 so as to fortify the foundation for the colouring to take place.... Later lunch sessions do not really help... Hence if any boss wants to make newcomers feel welcomed, please do extend invitations for lunch!
Haha.. thats a very brief one that i thought about... too lazy to type detailed =x...
Nobody to go lunch with.... Feels strange....
I miss you guys there at ML.... =(
Singapore's been pretty hot these few days man... Even after rain also hot.... lol Looks like global warming is dawning upon us eh ..... I hope that if we all were to die of global warming then lets hope it wouldnt be too painful...
I finally like found a job! Gonna start work next monday... Feeling excited and alittle afraid at the same time.... Although working is not unfamiliar to me, but the thought of having new colleagues and new boss sometime makes me a little scared....
Will they be nice? Will they be caring like all of my past colleagues and bosses? I hope they are... I hope they will lunch with me everyday though.... I think thats the most important part in working life... To have lunch with colleagues everyday, to share a meal time with each other and to know abit more about each other through this timeframe everyday....
I am also excited about this new jobscope... lol Every job is interesting to me, be it admin or banking operations.... I think I am able to find little bits of enjoyment and entertainment in doing my job tasks and to be able to devise significant time-cutting ways to do the job makes me feel accomplished.... Not about being able to get the credit for it but to actually devise a way that will thus be used by future people in the same position! its like an inventer... smaller duty but same accomplishment...
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Was talking to wenyou on the way home from amk hub about how life in essence is actually really really simple and is definitely not torturous most of the times that we feel it is....
Sure, life sometimes put you at crossroads/ decision-making/ tough times, but in essence irregardless of choices to be made or consequences/sideeffects to be suffered, life is simple! Just remember that life is an ongoing cycle and no one or no consequences of choices are impact-bearing forever. true that some decisions we make are very impact-bearing however those are probably the ones we are not gonna have a trouble deciding whether to do it or not...
Human tend to be very mindful of what we have/ what we dont want to lose/ what we cant bear to lose.... 得失心太重了.... Because of this, we tend to carry upon ourselves the heavy burden of worry/ troubledness ..... It is the people who cry of being too stressed out/ too depressed/ too suffocating that are unable to see through and to be able to let go.... 放下，拾得的会更多。。。 By letting go, we will be receiving more.... Who knows, what we lose now at this moment, might gain us more in the future.... So lets not be too mindful of what we might lose or have lost... It is definitely ok to lament once in awhile all the regrets you have.... Memories can definitely not be erased.... But it is important to not sink in to lamenting.... Sinking down spirals your mood downwards...
Hope i can walk this talk too... Training at every possible time....
Graduation day.... Some people view it as a very important event. I view it only as an ordinary event...
I must say that I am not very proud to have received the Dip with merit together with the rest... Some people might ask ' eh you siao ah.. dip with merit... give me i sure proud' but no... Knowing that I am probably the last of ALL the dip with merits... i dont really think that I truly deserved it.... I feel that I am such a fluke =x Same for getting into NTU... All are pleasant flukes....
The ceremony was shorter than expected although being one of the last few wasnt that good a feeling.... Saw most of my classmates of the past 3 years collecting their diplomas.... Certainly brings back memories....The times we had and the times we shared.... Good times and bad times.... And then soon it was my turn to receive... lol AND MY LECTURER ANNOUNCED , " FOO JIAMING!!!! " i was like wtf =x orhk... maybe its just my name... too hard to pronounce...
Took pics with friends and teachers after the ceremony... Teachers that have brought a difference to my life.... Did some catching up with some teachers and it seemed pretty remarkable how i can get from starting in Year 1 where i struggled to memorise how to do up a Balance sheet and a P/L income statement... Those times were horrid indeed... thats why my results were pretty horrid... lol and then started to improve in RFA and AFA... late better than never...
Went for a post-grad dinner with honey-water and people... lol (oops better not let her see this )
Went for steamboat buffet at this ulu hotel... average food abit high price... but its the company that counts like i always say.... Price for food is not the crux....
词:郑淑妃曲:陈国华
哭到喉咙沙哑还得拼命装傻
我故意视而不见你外套上有她的发
她应该非常听你的话
她应该会顺着你的步伐
乖乖的呆在家
静静的守着电话
我已剪短我的发剪断了牵挂
剪一地不被爱的分岔
长长短短短短长长
一寸一寸在挣扎
我已剪短我的发剪断了惩罚
剪一地伤透我的尴尬
反反覆覆清清楚楚
一刀两断你的情话你的谎话
哭到喉咙沙哑还得拼命装傻
我故意视而不见你外套上有她的发
她应该非常听你的话
她应该会顺着你的步伐
乖乖的呆在家
静静的守着电话
我已剪短我的发剪断了牵挂
剪一地不被爱的分岔
长长短短短短长长
一寸一寸在挣扎
我已剪短我的发剪断了惩罚
剪一地伤透我的尴尬
反反覆覆清清楚楚
一刀两断你的情话你的谎话
我已剪短我的发剪断了牵挂
剪一地不被爱的分岔
长长短短短短长长
一寸一寸在挣扎
我已剪短我的发剪断了惩罚
剪一地伤透我的尴尬
反反覆覆清清楚楚
一刀两断你的情话你的谎话
一刀两断你的情话你的谎话
lol... Just had a haircut and now have 短发 hehe....
I want a job soon man.... Too long at home no good =(
人生就如那平静的大海，随着外来的因素而翻腾着波浪，使得心情不能够清静而变得浮躁，
看着那平静的海，心里也不知不觉地平静起来。风不停地吹打在脸上，感觉瞬间的不一样。
人生苦短，一生都在等待。少时等待好成绩，终年等待职业和财富，老来等待子孙也无奈地
有的时候自己觉得想要得到的东西其实不是真正想要的东西。
人类越变越可悲。 我也是人类。正在寻找人生目的当中。
Other than the Sec 4 team, the rest of the teams performed horribly... And horribly is an understatement.... They were all lousing almost every of the 3 rounds available with the spread skyrocketing as well -.-... This must have been the worst year out of the 4 years I have coached back in CTSS.... These people just aint committed and motivated enough.... and yet teachers expect US (read: me and mervyn) to create motivation for them... -.- Come on lah... We cant do it....
On the way back on the bus, Ms Lim started with an encouragement speech (read:Try to make them not feel so bad) just like all scrabble teachers do... lol Somehow there is an uncanny resemblence to what Mr Ong does.... Then Mervyn started with his speech about reflecting on behaviour and stuff.... I ,being the bad guy, gave out the reprimanding in between Mervyn's speeches.... I think I sent the mood plunging all the way to ground zero because nobody dared to talk ... lol butbutbut the reprimanding that I gave have already been watered down.... Maybe its just the outburst of feelings of wu nai over the past weeks and all efforts are wasted.... I felt quite relieved after scolding them though...
Stayed around for carnival stuff and caught up with some teachers such as Mrs Wang..... Was talking to her with regards to being teachers and how to ensure it is my calling.... What she told me were definitely insightul as to how I can perhaps direct my future career....
The day was definitely scorching hot man..... The sun emitted heat rays like foc sia.... tmd so hot -.-
Met Yoke Hwee and walked around with him before meeting HD they all....
Had dinner with louisa,hd,yx,bryan and jonathan at Lot1.... Nice to be with them again....
I just filtered into lane 2 and stopped for the red light.... then this stupid taxi ( the black colour one) squeeze inbetween me(blue) and another car( in yellow)... Tmd he left his paint on my front part sia -.- my whole car was in the lane liao la... then he go squeeze tmd....
I got down the car to go li lun with him.... He kept speaking to me in hokkien =.= and damn fierce insist is my mistake when obviously its his cos i was already a stationary vehicle -.- tmd still kpkb me....
I hate this sort of taxi drivers who give a bad name to the rest.... stupid ppl not civilised still argue in a loud manner thinking loud sure win... dulan sia....see la... now my virgin accident give to an old uncle tmd... not a young chiobu... -.-
haiz...
but good news is! Im diploma with MERIT!!! YAY!!!
3 years in NP passed really fast... 'A blink of an eye' can be used to describe the speed.... It seemed only like yesterday that I had just participated in BAOC 06....3 years back, it really did seem like a long time before completion of the diploma....
3 years of ups and downs.... 3 years of projects, tutorials and examinations.... 3 years of different sorts of friendships.... Special yet not so special.... If you ask ' Are you gonna miss NP ?' Probably not... but I will definitely miss the company cos its definitely gonna be different people when I enter uni....
From 1A04 to 2A05 to 3A09.... I would have to admit that 2A05 was probably one of the best times I had in NP followed by 3A09.... Met great friends along the way of my 3 years.... Met my buddy! Met my great project mate of 5 semesters who probably knows me inside out and when im feeling down although I hate to admit =x
3 years of trials and tribulations..... From have thoughts abt quitting poly, lasting all the way till the completion of my diploma.... From the start of preparation for bonding camp for Serve China 07 to meeting my buddy of so long...
Sometimes I wonder whether my route would be different if I had entered JC.. Like what I told jiayin the other day abt how each place has its own 'Alan' or <insert best friends names> if you get the drift..... Especially after seeing my peers and juniors do so well in JC that sometimes I ponder if my life would perhaps be different if I had gone JC...
I guess that would never be known anymore considering that I have still gotten into uni abeit a longer route than the rest.... But NP has indeed developed me to be a pretty confident speaker and presenter and has definitely taught me well as to how to carry out a presentation.... Probably some regrets here and there but definitely not full of regrets i suppose....
Although we are going seperate ways and although i know that such bonds are bound to drift further and further but I do hope it doesnt =(
I thought of the below while on the way to pasir ris on the mrt and also while waiting for yx....
人类诞生在这地球上到底是为了什么?
从一个婴儿的诞生，成长，老死。。。 你们有没有想过我们其实正在活在一个有期限的壳里，死亡便是那个期限。
人类不断的拼命地想充实自己，拿到最好的成绩，读到最高的学位，赚最多的钱，住最大的
人类到底是为了什么而被判做人？神明一点启示都没有，说天机不可泄漏。人类便糊糊涂涂
面对着无法改变的命运，人类为何还会如此的不清醒？到了尽头，一切都成为虚有。那人类
Another week of short updates =)
Had BBQ with Ms koh and some TA09 people and also Jasmine from (Dunno which class)... Attendance was pretty bad with many people flying kite... However I think it was quite enjoyable... In fact I liked how we had a small group and interaction is much easier than having a large group.... Talked about random stuff....
After that went Steamboat buffet with CTSS peeps.... Ty people for spending the day with me =) The steamboat was pretty disappointing butbutbut I really enjoyed the company....Nothing beats having a meal with people that I enjoy talking to =) Gotta mahjong some time soon man...
Went for a couple of mahjong sessions.... Ytd went to ZJ hse for mahjong with YX... lol Pretty funny day I must say.... YX had quite a number of killing blows..... Although I lost around 2bucks.. lol but its all in a day's fun man.... Traded gossips and stuff.... I must say I was pretty surprised to hear the split between TA05 original people.... I pretty much sure I was expecting that.... However i must say the cause of it was pretty called for imo...
Been quite busy with scrabble trainings/ WoW raids and outings... Damn.. Gotta really find time to go back to ML for lunch... Its been long since I met them =)
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[ti:不在场证明]
[ar:苏永康]
[al:拥抱]
苏永康-不在场证明
有人说看见你在别的故事里
我没有起反应安静的擦眼睛
我其实不好奇像入无人之境
除了那些回忆应该无迹可寻
有的时候不自觉的叹口气
很多事我现在已不复记忆
好像是在很久以前的那里
彷佛是有很依稀一崇景
我删了简讯把确认键按到底
那些有爱的字句早已化成回忆
我换了手机也格式化记忆体
机器早已经忘记
烟灭了如今你不在场证明
有的时候不自觉的叹口气
很多事我现在已不复记忆
好像是在很久以前的那里
彷佛是有很依稀一崇景
我删了简讯把确认键按到底
那些有爱的字句早已化成回忆
我换了手机也格式化记忆体
机器早已经忘记
烟灭了如今你不在场证明
我删了简讯把确认键按到底
那些有爱的字句早已化成回忆
我换了手机也格式化记忆体
机器早已经忘记
烟灭了如今你不在场证明
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